What if I can't really hold this? What if he's not the indicated and he actually says no? I'll be devastated, or not. It's horrible 'cause I know I like him, sometimes I think I'm in love with him, but I can't prove it, 'cause he doesn't let me, I can't with this anymore. I'm so afraid. Sometimes I imagine my life beside him, my family beside him, my friends, and it's all so perfect 'cause I think we both can "teach us", we can be very happy together. I wish I could enter on his head, that would be nice, knowing what he really thinks and stop making things in my head, I hate that. I'm tired, I'm gonna sleep, please, if somebody can help me, anyway, do it.